"Isn't my story amazing?" "This is the unfolding of somebody who's been through something so tragic, and you get to watch her pick up the pieces"
I mean she went straight up cray after she talked to Chris. WTF?! Is she trying to be Amy from Gone Girl or what?! I really thought she was going to be a dud when I first saw her but ABC must have seen a glimmer of crazy in her eyes to keep her this long. I'm so interested to see what happens with her "panic attack". She may be crazy but she does know how to play the "game" which is just pissing off most of the girls. Especially my other favorite crazy Ashley I. Someone send her home already. She won't last one day in Iowa.
- Life with two kids has really caught up with me lately. I'm not going to lie the first few weeks weren't actually that bad but the last few weeks have been really tough. Matthew is almost 3 months old and has "woken" up in the last week. He coos and smiles and babbles to us and it's wonderful. It also means that he sleeps less during the day which means I'm being pulled in two directions at all times. While Miller seems to be enjoying a more awake Matthew he is also even more jealous than he was a few weeks ago. I've been trying my best to share my time equally but it's really hard and I always feel like one kid is getting the short end of the stick. Mom guilt is the absolute worst. Kyle has also been really busy at work and traveling a lot and parenting two kids alone is now joke.
Our freezing cold weather is not helping here and I forced the boys out on a walk yesterday since it was 42 degrees. We only lasted about 15 minutes but it was nice to get some fresh air. Of course today is 23 degrees.
- I feel like I just can't get caught up with my own life. Is this what life with two kids is like?? The best way to describe it is that I have a to-do with 100 things on it and every day I only get through 1 or 2 things and then I add five more to the list. I just feel like I can't get ahead. I hate that feeling. We are working on getting a cleaning lady and I can finally take Matthew to the gym tomorrow so I'm hoping both of those things will help me feel more organized/in control.
- I have at least 10 posts in my drafts right now that I just can't get finished. I love this blog but right now it's just taking a back seat to my busy life. I hope you all will bear with me. Hopefully this is just a phase and I'll be back in my groove soon. I am also so behind on reading blogs which I hate because I hate not knowing what's going on with all my "internet friends" as Kyle calls you all.
- In good news my birthday is this weekend :)